mrs.hizanee’s

This is my 5^th week on board this ship. Am I going nuts? I am not sure. I am now on the bridge, (it’s where the steering wheel of the ship is) I brought my husband’s phone, so I could take pictures of the moon and the stars and show it to you guys, and guess what? Out of all the nights, tonight, is a CLOUDY night. Just my LUCK.

It’s Saturday night, I KNOW my friends back in K.K are out right now, oh how I hate that thought of them having fun without me! oh well, I have to get used to it huh?! My day will come, the day when I’ll be laughing all the way to Universal Studios! Wahahahahaha! Take THAT! We’re having fun here too, well, at least the rest of the crew are, they are singing karaoke in the entertainment room located just next to our room, yes, they are very loud. Very, very LOUD (stare + long pause).

Let me go check, nope the moon is not coming out tonight, too bad, tomorrow night hopefully. I’m starting to think, the moon hate me too? Or maybe the moon is camera shy, maybe. Or maybe it joined the dolphins hates Vivi club?! I don’t know. Curse you dolphins!

Every time I’m on the bridge with my husband I turn to Dee dee and I‘m in Dexter’s Laboratory, there’s so many cute little red buttons I can push! But of course I have to restrain myself, I don’t want to be the first woman to be thrown out in the middle of the ocean, surely by the captain himself. So, to feed my curiosity, I ask my husband what every single thing and buttons do, he’s nuts now. And I like it. Now I know what Bengs and Dexter feels. Wahahahaha! Dee dee is SO me.

It’s so freaking cold here! I can’t feel my legs. We’re halfway to Sakai, Osaka. And it’s almost winter, so the weather is a bit cold. the last trip to Sodegaura , the temperature was 16 degrees. Now I think it’s lower than before. I am going to wear more clothes when I’m out this time, I don’t care if I look like the marshmallow man. It’s me who’s freezing her butt off.

*groan* there are no chairs here! There’s one in the back of the room but it’s stuck to the floor! I don’t how they do it, working 8 hours every day without sitting down. I can feel a blood clot in my leg! Oh! The PAIN!

The night before we arrived Sakai, Osaka, the husband went and told me that no one on the ship was going to Universal Studios. I was heartbroken. But I went down anyway, and I ended in a train to Osaka, well, I said I wanted to go, so I did. Alone.

I tell you nasiblah nda sesat. Japanese people are so polite and helpful, without them I would be lost! I exchanged trains three times to get to Universal Walk, and when I saw a train with universal studios poster all over it, I know I was going into the right direction. Eventually, I arrived at 2 pm. Ok the feeling I had that time was more intense than the one I had in sodegaura when I saw the shop with all the cute things. I SMILED, my eyes were wide open, and I couldn’t stop giggling, I did this all the time I was there. You know that feeling, when you were a kid, your parents, or siblings, brought you to a toys ‘r’ us store, and they let you lose?  It’ like being in the Barbie’s section, all pink and full of small clothes and little shoes! It’s like you want to scream “I WANT IT ALL!” Yep, that was the feeling I had, that was before entering, I was still at the entrance, buying a ticket, which cost me 5,800 yen! That’s almost rm200. But because I have thrill issues, and because there, nearby the entrance I saw, a roller coaster ride falling almost 90 degrees down. That was the main reason I couldn’t stop giggling.

Please be informed that I went there alone, so all the pictures you’re about to see was taken by me, alone, remember. No time for posing. And yes. All the pictures are at the same angle, I did that so you guys can look at the beauty of my dagu. Wahahaha!! And plus, I look thinner that way.

I finally went in. I felt all the excitement in me was about to burst! I nearly wanted to faint. Really, I nearly fainted because I haven’t eaten the whole day. But who CARES! You know what I did after that? I went on the roller coaster ride. Hell yeah!

I lined up, and stood in the drizzle, for about 30 minutes. After the back killing line up, it was my turn! I SAT IN FRONT. Oh hell yeah I did! And I was the only one who was sitting in the front row! When the thing started to move, I then thought “what the hell am I doing!?” and then came the (almost) 90 degrees drop. Then came “oh the hell with it! F** king shit YEAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!” My voice was the loudest there. Whahahaha!

Well here I am again, back on the ship, another few days I’ll be in Bintulu, calling everybody in KK (well, almost) and hating them for being in KK. I’ve been painting again and I think I inhaled too much acrylic paint now I found myself smiling, alone. It’s my happy gas! Wahahaha! It’s so obvious that I’m bored.

Oklah, I got to go and fatten myself up again.

LOVE LOTS!

It has been almost three weeks since I have been on board this ship, for some people I know, they would be bored shitless. But not for me! It’s not that I am having a super duper time, heheh, just wanted to use that word, I am actually getting comfy and always relaxing most of the time. Yeah. No shitty things messing up my mind. No problems, just pure relaxation, that and miles and miles of open sea, yep, nothing but the ocean.

Sometimes I feel like being in a mental hospital, minus the jacket, and the padded room. I am in a world ruled by men, and there are no sights of other women. Yes, I’m the only woman on board; I heard there’s another wife getting on board this ship, in DECEMBER! I could go nuts by then. I am already talking to myself, but that’s not unusual for me, I always talk to myself. Oh god! I need a pet, a goldfish maybe, or a plant. Well can’t find that anywhere near here, just seaweeds. I do not know how to take care of seaweeds. And still no signs of those "friendly" Dolphins! friendly lah konon!

Wanna hear a very funny story? Heheh! I just started to use tampons, yes, tampons, and on the package they wrote, “So soft, you can even flush them down the toilet!” and so, I did. The next week, my husband’s colleague told him to tell me, to stop flushing tampons down the toilet, because it’s causing a problem to the ship’s drainage. I did not come out from my room for almost a week. I really wanted to kill myself. Seriously. 

Another trip to Sodegaura, and I went down alone.  Si kawan ada kerja. It was fun actually, yeah. Tiada orang bising2 sama aku kalu aku lambat. Heheh! The shitty thing was, I had this NASTY cold, I sneezed all the way! Shial! But still, I walked, and walked, until I couldn’t feel my legs. Jauh oo! Adalah beberapa meter. Hmm.. that’s enough exercise for a month. I managed to walk until Sogo. I tell you, the Sogo here is much more exclusive then the one in KL, it’s more like Starhill. Tinggi gila. Berapa kali aku naik escalator. Bikin penat. Cukup lagi sebulan exercise. After going on the forth escalator, I reached the 4^th (or was it the 5^th?) floor, (with eyes wide open, I was excited like a little child) it was like heaven’s store for me. It was full of cute little things which, I LOVED! I spent an hour and a half there, and bought a few stuff. It was so cool, I wished beng2 was there with me, he’d love that shop. After an  exhausting and tiring walk, i had to stop for dinner, and guess what it was… TEMPURA! With the rice and all the other stuff. And it was quite nice. Delicious actually. Lapar pula aku.

road trip!

It was time to go home, after the 30 minutes bus ride, we had to walk back to the ship, and the wind that night was blowing, hard. When I reached my room, I couldn’t feel my legs! They were so numb! I tell you puting pun keras. Thank god my sniffles went away after a good sleep.

The next trip to Negishi, may be cancelled (sigh), the ship is (maybe) going to Sakai, Osaka. And a crew told us that there’s Universal Studios (hell yeah!) in Osaka (please go! GOD! Puhhhlleeaasssee!!) I’m not that excited though. Act cool. (itupun kalu sempat pegi, dang!)

We’re on the way back to Bintulu, some of the ship’s crew are going home tomorrow. I guess they’re happily packing right now. Good for them, because some of them have been on this ship for 6 months! That’s enough time for me to check in to that padded room in hmm.. Bukit Padang lah, it’s near my house, my family and friends can visit me anytime. Budus.

You know, the view of the sky at night, when you’re in the middle of nowhere, is so DAMN beautiful, you can even see the little stars popping out, you could even see planets so clear, and they shine the ocean below. And the moon, lights up our journey to Bintulu like a lamp post. It’s huge! Almost like it’s just a few miles away. You could even see the rabbit chopping wood. Well, they say it looks like that, I don’t know.  It’s just so beautiful and calming, all at the same time.

Well, I’m done here. I miss KK like HELL!! Just wanted to let that out. Got to go now! Take care and be good boys and girls!

Love lots!

Viva La Viv

Day 1: I woke up at 10 in the morning by a noisy rattling sound, and found that the chair in our room was shaking all by itself, and I felt the ship was a bit shaky, I excitedly ran to the bedroom window, and saw nothing but deep blue sea, yes, I yelped a little, we were finally sailing! The room we are staying in is the same size of my room back in KK, except that my room in KK does not roll from side to side, like a cradle. For some it would mean seasickness, but for me alhamdullilah, I feel like a baby being cradled and I’m sleepy all the time. Thank you mama, for the early training, all the fishing trips I went with you, made me immuned. There is nothing much to do around here, but I think I’m used to this life, hehe! In this room there a wall clock that ticks when every minute passes, actually, it’s more a ‘toing’ than a tick, and if you keep on looking at it, you may go nuts, so I chose to ignore it. This room is complete with a small fridge, the one you can find in hotels, a desk, a sofa, tv, dvd, brought our own PS2, and the toilet is similar to an airplane toilet, but this toilet, has a shower. Oh and they give out FREE snacks! Free cereals, Free Coke, Free such and such! The point is, this trip, is so much fun!

  Do I make you proud dad!?

The bedroom view.

Day 2: 12am, the husband was on his way up for work, I decided I was going to pass to see him work this time, I was so sleepy, just a few minutes passed, I was all alone in our room, the light was on, “ok” I keep telling myself, “there’s nothing to be scared of, go back to sleep” then bang! I heard like a drawer was like opened and shut, I didn’t know where that noise came from, but that was it, I lasted a full 10 minutes alone in the room, called my man, “I’m scared. I wanna go up now!” and spent the rest of the night sleeping on a couch.

Now I know why the darkest blue is called Navy Blue, it’s the colour of the sea, it is so beautiful, the sea is actually green, I don’t know why we see it as blue, and it is so much different from the sea you usually see from a plane or from a trip to the islands, the colour is so much brighter here, the air is so much fresher. When the ship is moving, bubbles form from below and it makes the most beautiful white and the most beautiful light blue I’ve seen, the light blue, I believe, is called aquamarine blue, with a little shade of green, I wish I could create such a colour on my colour palette. Oh and the bubbles, is called white horses, I don’t know why, it does not look like white horses at all. Well maybe similar to the horse’s mane, I guess. I’m waiting for the dolphins to appear, they say the dolphins always come and swim so near to the ship, I guess they like to play with the white horses, I’ going to make a sign to welcome the dolphins, and whales, and stick it on the bedroom window. I bet they are so smart they can read it!

Day 3 & 4: The dolphins hate me, and not forgetting the whales, I have not seen even one tailfin from the day we sailed. I guess they can’t read the sign I made for them. Oh well, I saw birds anyway, live and dead ones, I even saw flying fishes, yes, they were flying, well actually they were jumping, and the wings are actually their fins, but still, they were beautiful. I’m somewhere in Japan’s sea, the colour of the sea here is a bit different, it’s a lighter kind of dark blue, in a couple of days we’ll be reaching Japan, I forgot which part. Being stuck in the middle of the sea doing nothing makes you think all sort of things, like why didn’t do that while I was doing this, well something like thatlah, and to Ayu, ko tau dia punya Captain smart nih! He’s got tattoos on both of his arms, a snake on his right and a picture of a tiger on his left, gaya, pakaian semua macam clubbers ja, cool, memang gerenti ko suka tengok. Banyak budak sini, I think besar Hadi, bukan umur, tapi kebesaran si Hadi, so young, and there are a lot of Pilipino people working on this ship, I can think of one person who would love to have conversations with them. And guess what? I’m the only woman on board, and the men look like they fear me, is it my dagu? Hmm? I don’t think so, maybe I should walk around naked, and that’ll get their attention, wahahaha!! Look what sailing has made me. A crazy person. Tapi aku memang gila2. Mau main PS2, dvd dia rusak! Kindet! I recently bought a PSP, and I know for sure kalau aku kasi tengok si onel atau si dongkoi gerenti itu ja dorang main. It’s really addictive. Dammit. And now, I’m sleepy. Off to sleep!

Day 5 & 6: I really think the dolphins only understand Japanese, Darn it. I reached Japan’s Sodegaura on the sixth day, or was it the seventh? Uhh.. I really can’t remember, but it was really nice, a little cold, for me,  but the weather was just nice. Really nice.

  Japan baby!

We arrived at the town of Sodegaura, at around 6.30, after an hour’s drive from the port, and the first thing I saw was, a vending machine! Wahahaha! And with my very own eyes, I saw the original Tokyo drift! Well, Sodegaura drift, but I guess it’s still the same, the car was driven by a jap, so.. it was COOL! When people tell you that things in Japan are expensive, believe them, because they really are expensive! A piece of cake, costs around RM12 a slice, a tin of any kind of drink costs around RM3 each, and I wasted RM150 on food itself! But it was worth it. The cake was delicious, the drink was cool and refreshing. So it was worth every penny. God, I sound like a food commercial. My trip was a short one, but I’ll be back in Sodegaura in a week or so, I’ll tell you more about my trip soon.

SUNDOWN! Wahahaha!

Now, we’re on the way back to Bintulu. Nothing special here. Hari Raya’s here! This is my first time away from my family, I miss them, it’s a pity there won’t be any raya celebrations at my house for my friends this year, but you guys are always welcome, minta bapa aku duit angpow! Heheh! So, to my family and friends Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin, I wish I was there with you guys! 0-0 okay!? Memang gerenti aku nangis ni! Iskkk!!!

Sorry mom, for not visiting you this year, forgive me, but bapa will always go visit you, I hope you are happy where you are now. My prayers are always with you, I miss you, always.

Till next time, I love you guys! And I miss you all! Take Care and be good!

oh shitz,

I am BORED. i’m bored of playing dumb PS2 games, but, there’s nothing else to do here, except.. play dumb games. Oh god, the games they create nowdays, are so f**king creepy, not forgetting scary, the game i’m playing now is..uhh called "the rule of rose", it’s something like Resident Evil minus the flesh-eating zombies, well, kind of, now, they replaced the zombies with scary, fu*ked up kids that can kill you, oh, i forgot that they threw in lil eyeless zombies that likes to grab my character, Jennifer. And the shittiest part, ok, i get to kill those eyeless zombies.. with a small freaking fork. and the way Jennifer attacks is no MORTAL COMBAT attack, it’s more of a i’m-covering-my-eyes-while-i-attack-u kind of attack, yes, she’d cover her eyes while she attacks, funny lil b*tch huh? oh the people who created this game are sick.

I am going to sue the creators if i’d dream of those lil zombies tonite, trying to kill them with a cocktail fork. now that would be a true nightmare.

I miss interactions with people. I need to get out from this place. help.

I hate that feeling, THAT feeling u get when u’re on the way to the airport, knowing u’re leaving KK in an hour, ni timelah, berabis ko tgk plate no. Sabah.. u know u’ll miss seeing all those SAs & SAAs plates, coz u won’t be seeing it alot when u’re away.

The Airport, how i hate that long line, waiting..waiting..for 30 freaking minutes!

My bestfriends came to see me go ( I HATE THIS TOO) O god..the tears! Tahaaaannn…

Do u get that feeling when u’re boarding the plane, and it’s like one foot is on the stairs n the other is like stuck to the ground,not wanting to leave, but still u drag it up, coz u hav to..

And when the plane starts to take off, is actually my fav part, but the shitty thing about that this time, is just that i dun wanna leave, it’s like my body is on the plane, but my soul is still stuck in KK, waving at my body.. F**KER! wen the plane is up in the sky, u cud see KK from high above the sky, and look 4 the places where u always hang out, where sweet memories happened, O god…MORE TEARS!! well, this time..tiada tahan2..kasi kuar!!

and when u arrive at ur destination, it’s like u dun wanna part with the other passengers, coz that’s the last time u’ll b in a group of Sabahans, coz u’re so used to hearing that Sabah slang.. this is actually funny, coz kalu time ko balik kk, d airport ja, nda sabar ja mau kluar, fedup tgk muka passengers yg lain adalah.. ehehe, things flying can do to u..

Now, I’m not in KK.. it has only been 2 days, but i am SO HOME SICK.. I miss my family, I miss my siblings screaming near my bedroom door, I miss screaming at them, I miss my cats, I miss my room..I miss CHAIN-SMOKING!! I miss Lia n Shanty (WAHAHAHA) I miss my lil baby munkey, c amoi,I miss goin out late at nite, I miss my dad’s scoldings, I miss Salim, I miss everything in KK!!!!! huhuhuhuhu!!!*snort*

I Love KK so much, and I am so proud to b a Sabahan!!

Onel, Ayu, Dongs, Kal, Jojo, Lyni, Jane, Ella, Wil, Kecie, Nanoks, Anna, Adek, Ija, Tina, Dawn, Lee, Anne, Ceyla, Bibi, Nassha, Mai, Joey, Yoyo, mitch, Pam, Bengs, Kakak, Boy, c Bartender, and uuuhhh…everyone i terforgot, sorry!! Halalkan makan minum aku,sigups aku, sorry if i did anything wrong, and thank you all 4 everything! I miss All Of u!! SO MUCH!! ISKKKKK!!!

Untill next time..

I’ll c u wen i c u!!

Love Lots!!

dugs.

p/s AL-FATIHAH 4 a good friend of ours Fendy @ Adek, Who passed away a week ago, mudah2an rohnya di cucuri rahmat -amin. 

Life,

2 me it has always been strange, why can’t we get what we want, why can’t life just be easy, far, far, faaaaaaaarrrrr away as possible from problems.. wish my life was like that.. yeah right, i wish.

Oh well, life isn’t all that bad.. i guess.

my head is now filled with lot of sh*tty problems that i can’t even figure out myself..kill me now puuuhhhllleessseee….but..do it slowly..

I am going nuts soon..so b4 i do sumthin stupid,i just wana tell all my friends "i love u guys." (don’t worrry i won’t kill myself..)

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha

stay single! it’s waaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy M.O.R.E fun.

oh and yes… I MISSSSSS K.K SSSSOOO fu*king MUUUCCHHH!! (dui..baru mau masuk 1 bulan..)

Hahahahahahahahahaha…again.."i love u guys"..now go to hell.

lotsa sh*tty kisses and n f*cked up hugs,

miss always right.